Its been a while since I wrote to you, I'm sorry for that. I talk to you every day in my mind, I always wonder, torture myself with the what it's.. But it never changes anything. It doesn't get easier to accept that something so precious was taken away. Its hard, I feel for mum the most because I know she's never going to be the same person she was.. All I see is pain in her and that kills me. The day you passed it broke her heart, and there's nothing anyone could do to repair that. There's just an emptiness within her every day she has to go on living without you. Its hard to see that, its harder every birthday or anniversary. If I could have one wish, I wouldn't even need to think about it.. Id bring you back to her without any hesitation. I'm sorry that you were chosen, I'm sorry that you never had a chance to live and experience all the things that you should have. You deserved that opportunity, you deserved a life. To live and to breathe and to love. It hurts to know that you never had that.. I hope that in the few weeks you were on this earth you knew how loved you were, how loved you will forever remain. You're passing has changed a lot of people, there's an ache.. A hole. No one will ever get over that, they've just learnt how to carry on until the day they meet you again. Until they can hold you for eternity and shower you in love. I try every day to make you proud, I try to keep everyone together. But this family will always be missing something, because every last one of us is missing you. I love you, I always will. I cant wait to see you waiting on the other side for me, whenever my day comes. I'll be ready to take your hand into eternity. I hope you're sleeping well angel, rest in peace.
This candle was first lit on the 20th of February 2015 and will burn for 90 years 9 months and 14 days.